My Husband Won’t Have Sex With Me Anymore…

Husband and I hadn’t had sex, love, intimacy in 45 years. The only sex we had was on our wedding night. Before we were married everything was great, back then sex before marriage was a no-no. I think he hid the fact that sex wasn’t his thing, and sex the one time was it. The day after our wedding he went right back to work on the midnight shift and moved all of his things down to the basement. I asked what kind of married life are we going to lead. He told me to deal with it, he wanted nothing to do with me and he told me so, sex was stupid, way to much work and totally disgusting and messy. I said I wanted kids, love and affection, and again he said not with me. Go find some one who will have kids with you, but make sure he supports them, I’m not. Shortly there after I found out he got himself fixed. Its been a lonely, depression filled, unloved, unwanted life. I dislike the word hate but I know what it means now. I keep hoping some morning I won’t wake up and it will be all over.